During sermon illustrations, my Pastor has often said "Anyone's world can be shattered by one phone call."

Tuesday I received that phone call. 

At 12:15pm I was called into HR and took a phone call from our new VP of Marketing. I was laid off from my Regional Event Marketing position with Nordstrom. What?!?! 

What am I supposed to do with that? How do I reconcile my thoughts of sadness, anger, frustration, and wanting to steal all the post-it notes as my sweet revenge. (I love post-it notes.)

I knew that Nordstrom was going through a marketing restructure and that there was some potential for teams to be moved, cut, or reorganized, but I didn't expect it to happen to MY team! It's always supposed to happen to someone else- not to me! After years of working up through the company to get where I am, and finally enjoying the rare trifecta of: my work, my teammates, and my boss, it was all snatched away from me in 2.5 seconds. I know she had plenty of other phone calls to make, but she didn't even say she was sorry. It's ok though- I know it's business. Nothing personal, right? Sure. 

But as upsetting as losing a job is, I don't feel any animosity toward Nordstrom. No, I'm thankful for the time spent and the experience gained... and I'll continue to shop there (even though I'll miss that discount!), but now what?!

I have to evaluate. I have to evaluate my career path, why I enjoyed this role, where I want to go, and ultimately where I want to end up... self-employed? A blogger? An event planner? I'm not sure! I know that God has given me natural abilities and talents that are unique to me and are why I'm so successful in event planning especially, but I have to decide where to go next. I am so thankful for all of the support that I have received from friends thus far- flowers, sweet cards, and phone calls have all meant so much to me. Now the hard part begins: the job hunt. 

I told someone today that it's ok for me to be upset but now I have to choose DAILY to put my hope in the Lord and not in my job (easier said than done!). It's so easy for me to be stressed about finding a new job, but I have to trust that He is guiding me each day and has a greater plan for me than I could even imagine.